Sexuality is so powerful. It’s something we all have but not all of us know how to use it or are comfortable with it. I think I’m still a bit scared of my sexuality and how pervy I can be. Sometimes I catch myself thinking something and I gross myself out, nothing really weird but for the ex- Roman Catholic convent boarding schooled divorced, cliched lezzer that I now am, I give it a good go!
I’ve seen girls who walk around literally dripping sex, you know the ones slow the world down and manage to make everything look sexy… I mean EVERYTHING, it’s weird. I’ve also seen the opposite, the girl who hides so far back in herself, you find it hard to make out whether you should shake her hand or just awkwardly wave hello because you don’t want to scare her with a kiss on the cheek. I know that you can’t judge a book by it’s cover, and how people look/come across might not be how they really are. But why do some have it and others don’t? Where does it even come from?
With men, I see things really differently. Usually I see male sexuality in a predatory aggressive way, which is really not really a fair judgement on men because I know not every man is a predator and I’ve also had the misfortune to be on the receiving end of some aggressive butch lady loving attentions and that’s just as bad. I wonder if it’s just because I’m just a total lezzer and the thought of doing anything sexual with a man, if I’m being really honest, kind of creeps me out.
Anyway, I’m rambling! If sexuality is everywhere we look in the media why are so many of us afraid of our own sexuality and or other peoples’ and their expressions of it? Surely we should be able to be open about what we feel and not ashamed of it. After all most of the things we buy are sold using seductive sexually provocative adverts, why do we think it’s ok for brands to be overtly sexual yet we can’t?
Why do we condemn and shame people who are open and honest about their sexuality? Just because someone likes sniffing a shoe, does that make them bad? How many people have you heard say “urgh, she’s just so crude or so slutty” or “I just would NEVER do that!” or worse “God, why would she talk about that, I’d be so embarrassed?” I bet those people also change the channel when a tampon ad comes on in-between watching an HBO series filled with incest and porn!
I’m not sure what I’m trying to say I think it’s, whether you’re a crazy weirdo perv, a lezzer or totally celibate it doesn’t matter, you should feel confident enough to be open about it. Maybe if we all talk about our sexuality enough we’ll bore each other into not giving a shit and then we can all live in perfect harmony….. la la la laaaa
By the way in case you are wondering I soooo watch True Blood (aka horror porn) and Game of Thrones! Love a bit of HBO. This is really one massive self indulgent note to self…. although I’m getting better because if you come over to mine now, I promise I won’t change the channel when the tampon ad comes on!